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What I want in a partner (spouse).

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Honestly, I want LOVE And everyone else definitely wants that. My heart and soul crave love. Real love, genuine love. Because genuine love encompasses affection, kindness, care, compassion, intentionality, always readily taking responsibility for me and what's mine, giving me happiness, comfort and a sense of belonging, being mindful of & careful with my heart no matter what, trusting my actions, decisions and opinion, whose obsession would never get to affect me negatively, make me shade tears or have any regret. One with whom I would have peace, our peace of mind matters. A partner who would always consider me when making decisions, having eyes for me alone, not doubting me or giving me reason to doubt. A pattern with a very clean, smoothe and pure appearance, also with a good sense of humor (Don't be a joke and don't be too mean). I want a partner with genuine love for me who wouldn't hold back showing it. A partner whose every word and action towards...
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Thinkout out loud

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My random thoughts   I am different, very unique but not sure if it's worth celebrating or should be regretted. But, regret is not my thing; another confusing issue.  Is it a good thing for someone not to have regrets, always justifying every action in a way and moving on ? You know, it's quite sad to find yourself stuck in a world of no comfort and no real happiness. It's tiring, weakening, kindof frustrating and just devastating. As much as I try to counter the thought and feeling of wishing I never existed because I probably don't worth it, the feeling keeps springing up and I find myself long drowned in it before I start trying to help myself up. I'm supposed to believe very much in God and be very prayerful but it's just a pity I doubt I'm half way there. I need Divine intervention and quite urgent help. Dear God, please take charge and help me out🙏.
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Self Reflection & honest truth

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A whole lot runs across the human mind. But it takes a great mind to acknowledge the inappropriate thoughts, admit they really are and then find solutions to them. I lose focus easily. I am not intentional about my life. I don't seem to be at the driving seat of my life or perhaps I am but just like a figurine on the seat.  Life seems to be controlling and directing me while I just follow as it leads. I'm not a goal getter either, being that I don't make plans and stick to it no matter what. Yeah, I want a certain kindof life, I actually try to work hard for it but I don't stand strong when the test gets tough. I chicken out easily, I go back on my words, I surrender to trials, temptations & obstacles probably because I always don't mind starting over again but the truth is..., how long am I going to continue like this? Will I ever achieve  the desired result with this kindof effort? Why do I seem to expect God to do everything for me. To make it all...
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Fake Housemates

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Some Live, Some Others Exist. What determines your category?? It's quite confusing how different people tend to be in different world, have different beliefs, understanding, knowledge, experiences, vision, lifestyle, mindset and even different Luck while in the same world, created by same creator, breathe in air from same source. It's as if some people are created to make-up the crowd in some other people's "life story". I mean, someone is alive but no meaningful life, seemingly irrelevant, just merely exist.   While some others are living life in full, having meaningful & intentional lives, having others dwell under their shadows, either serving them, being  parasites or just harmless beneficiaries, seemingly existing just for the sake of the ones living.  Like everything they do is programmed to somehow have impact on the world of their benefactors. Just sharing planet earth with them like fake housemates who could be evicted just anything. And the most baff...
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What a Life !

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How frustrating it could be sometimes, just thinking of your existence. At times you wish you could just vanish from life without notice and everything remains normal like nothing happened, like you never existed. You don't want your family, friends, well wishers and acquaintances to mourn you or ever get to feel bad or feel like they lost someone, don't want to put anyone in distress but you know this isn't possible. Yet again, you feel bad at this same thought, feeling like you never even truly mattered to anyone initially. So, you just might try not minding their emotions and leaving anyway.  And then again, you wish never to find yourself anywhere else if you leave, never want to be in existence again at all, no spirit world, no roaming in the current world as a spirit being, don't want to know what happens or will be happening after you've gone. Like just somehow wishing there was never you or never once you. You just want to go without feeling any pain, not b...
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My sign-in piece

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  The human mind is quite deep. Deeper than we imagine, more complex than we really think it is and much more complicated than we tend to know . I've always been a blog lover. Always loved to write and have always wanted to put everything that runs across and goes on in my mind into writing, I mean to communicate my mind to the world around me; but, the big challenge was... 'how to start'. But suddenly, something happened. An opportunity came without prior notice that propelled me to discover this medium through which I can air my thoughts, motivate, educate and share valid information. And now here I am, happy and feeling  somewhat fulfilled having started this wonderful journey which I believe so much would be a huge success and make impart. So, my words to you dear reader is  " stay tuned and do well to make us your sure plug for valid info and you won't regret it".   Chao!
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