Thinkout out loud



My random thoughts 

I am different, very unique but not sure if it's worth celebrating or should be regretted.
But, regret is not my thing; another confusing issue. 
Is it a good thing for someone not to have regrets, always justifying every action in a way and moving on ?

You know, it's quite sad to find yourself stuck in a world of no comfort and no real happiness. It's tiring, weakening, kindof frustrating and just devastating.

As much as I try to counter the thought and feeling of wishing I never existed because I probably don't worth it, the feeling keeps springing up and I find myself long drowned in it before I start trying to help myself up.

I'm supposed to believe very much in God and be very prayerful but it's just a pity I doubt I'm half way there.
I need Divine intervention and quite urgent help.

Dear God, please take charge and help me out🙏.

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